Sep 24, 2012

I Went Out Today.

Today is the first time I actually went out to the world after Jordan left for Hong Kong. For a moment, I did enjoy myself.

But there was a little part of me that was empty and as a result of that, I pulled away from the crowd and sat at the corner. It's no one's fault. It wasn't even because of the gig.

When you've been inseparable for the longest time, and when you finish each other's sentences and work the best together, when one goes away even for a short while, it's probably close to losing a limb. A part of you goes on hiatus.

I can still talk to him and hear his voice. But I miss the hugs and him holding my hand. I miss him being weird next to me, and not over Skype, miles away.

He is my rock, my security blanket and my knight. It's been one week, I have 2 months and 3 weeks left till I see him again. I haven't cried since he left... Until now.

I miss you. You have no idea.

Sep 22, 2012


*dusts off blog* it's been a while, huh?

If you haven't been following my twitter feed (which I'm sure you haven't because my life is actually boring), I'm going through some changes in my life. I'm not sure whether it is for better or for worse, but it's definitely changing.

The first change is getting a new job. And it's not in post. Once again I'm taking another leap to a different industry. I've done that once already. Don't get me wrong though - i love working in post. It's the one thing that I feel like I'm doing right. But doing it in this country, and this industry here, no matter how many hours and hard work you put in, it tires you out and you begin to wonder if it was all worth the effort at all. Hopefully I come back to post one day in a better climate. I'll probably still take up some freelance anyway because I'll have a little more time on my hands. So I'm not completely out of the loop yet.

My boyfriend had just left for Hong Kong. He received an offer to become a colorist there and is actually doing pretty well. A little disappointed with myself that I didn't even try for the job seeing as how I want to become a colorist. But whatever. No use feeling sorry for myself now. He seems pretty alright there. It's only for 3 months, at least for now. I thought it'd be pretty hard to get used to him not being around seeing as how for the past 2 years we've been pretty much inseparable.

Maybe some time apart will do us some good.

I'm switching gyms. Because of the amount of time I have now, I decided to go ahead and sign up for a different gym. Curves was good, don't get me wrong, and it is perfect for older ladies, physical rehabilitation, or people who have never ever exercise before, but i'm hardly sedentary nowadays. And I want more classes and flexibility in time and my workouts.

I also recently cut my hair, which I don't really like. That's the last time I'll go to that hair salon. Went there because I had a groupon. Now I realized maybe paying rm88 may actually been a complete waste of money I would still have now.

A lot of things have been going on in the last stretch of the year. I wonder what else.
Here's some photos. I need to past out.